Useless

I can't seem to let go of the past and knowing what is in present for me . I still want it to come back and stay the same and work for the best . Is god telling me something or is it my karma? I don't know what to do with it . I seems hopeless . I feel like I am all alone, times like this . If letting go is easy, I won't have a problem with that now. I am tired but I still don't want give up as I believe there is chances left as long as I believe in it . What more can I say to express myself ? I don't know how . If only you could just come back and make thing right , so much better .