29th's goodbye .

Even things had ended for you but not for me and I am trying to feel this relationship ended . I love your everything. Even though I wanted you change and always had a fight with you cause of your flaw but I didn't left you for who you are . I might be always saying breaking but my heart never ever give up on you . Cause I know my purpose in this relationship and I am determine to stay but I guess I no longer had that strength to continue to stay . My purpose is I just want be always the one be there for you when no one else is there for you and be the best girlfriend . The one who loved you the most . But I fail tremendously . I allow my emotional took control of me that why I keep having fight with you . That because I am afraid to lose you . I doesn't want annoy or cling on you . I will just wish you to be happy and hoping you will turn back one day.

29th December 2012 is the day we got together and we had thanksgiving dinner with our cell group . You got so angry and mental torture yourself cause one of your close friend went lost her way and couldn't find her direction but ended up she found it . I was super upset and wanted to cry seeing you like this . I will never be that important as her .

Febuary
We broke up for 2 weeks . I almost moved on but I still patch with you cause I love you and want you to be in my life . But the next day I heard from the girl close friend that you chased the girl . You don't know how much it hurt me, do you?

March
We finally patch and put relationship status together In facebook . You said I am the first girl you put with and you only put it on Facebook if you are really serious to last With the girl. When you ask me , I was super happy and I am always waiting for you to ask me .

April
You texted me that your vice principle talked to you . And you type me a super long message sounding it as if you want a break up . I was feeling emotionless the whole day and upset . Then few days later you told me is I misunderstand it is a break up. I shouldn't assume but when I ask you , you feeling fade again , you say yes. I was again disappointed .

May
The month that we got a terrible fight cause of one girl who attempted suicide but fail and she is alright . I just came back from camp and I told you how much I afraid to lose my bf cause of my past relationship . You forgot I suppose. And when I told you I had insect bite , you didn't even show me concern . The bite is so worse that I need injection. I fear of injection do you know that? Not a single concern question coming from you.
And yeah , I know that month we got numerous breaking up . I was super upset that you know I was unhappy that you contacting her yet you still continue . She is the one who let it go the friendship that is why you let it go . I tolerated it , you took it for granted .

June ,
Things got better you started pampering me . You Trying to understand me and you even know I love food and hello kitty :) And I wrote a note to remember the day when you started . That is how much I want to remember our memories we had together . You even bought me 5packet of made in candy and a card to represent how much you loved me even though it cheap . but i apperciate it . But I know this month we had very less fight or maybe none . All I wanted to be is stay by your side and be your only woman .

July
We had many fights cause of my insecurity and thinking how much stuff you done me wrong . Yes you indeed change to be a better man than before . But the numerous girls you talking to , still making me insecure .

August
You celebrate my birthday early as you were to afraid that you might not have the chance to . That so sweet of you <3 . And you wrote me a birthday card . That is when I fell double more for you. You bought me to jack place and celebrated with me there . It is like I am in a movie . You did things that I don't expect anyone who will done for me . And I set my mind to be your wife . That how much I love you and wanting to stay in your life .
But soon my actual birthday the previous day , we broke up and got a fight cause of a girl . The way she talk is like I don't exist and I have to admit that i am jealous whenever other girls talk to you. I want you be my one and only and nobody shall take you away from me . Yes , you told Felicia that you want patch with me . And we patched . But the next day on my birthday we got fight again and I remember Casper asking you how many girls you want involve in this relationship .

Sep
Everything was okay but still got many fight due to my insecurities and your concern area . You can't show me care and concern like how you show to your close friends. Yes it hurt me super lot that the fact they is girls too. You make me feel I am your friend while they are like your girlfriend.
I remember you have not much money left but still you bought me a hello kitty key chain alike to hello kitty birthday shirt but on top is " I love you" When you got me that , you know how much happy I was? I can say that I really loved you like hell. That You will never imagine .
And I once told you I was upset cause of my best friend , you simply ignore and slow reply me . Busy talking to others
But this the month is when we broke up and never got back even till now.

I can't remember when is it but got once we broke up , you bought me 6 twelve cupcake's cupcake and a made in candy lolipop cause you wanted patch with me :') you even bring me eat curry house knowing I like their food there too. You once came down to admiralty specially see me and bring me eat for lunch . I always had injury on my leg so you bought me to guardian and bought 3pack of neon plaster ^^ . You know after you do all this sweet stuff for me and there is so much more , I realized myself I can't bring myself to give up on you . Even now you pushing me away , I still doesn't want to cause I keep believe you are the one for me and I going fight my way to stay at your side living in god faith . I cherish everything we had together .I just hope one day just one day things can go back the same and be perfectly fine ....